How Music Saved My Life
In light of today being World Mental Health Day, I've decided to make todays blog post about how I've personally experienced anxiety and depression.
It's a lot more common then you think, partially because we keep to ourselves when we go through it, I know I did until I found my way of expression.
I picture anxiety and bad feelings as an energy that builds up over time. Negative comments, experiences or media can impact us very greatly without even realizing it. As much as we would all like to be able to just block out negativity - it is a pretty difficult task, even for a spiritual badass. Overtime this bad energy collects and eventually explodes if it isn't released.
Many people find that the best way to release this bad energy is by meditating, painting, playing music or even exercising. This makes sense because creativity is a form of expression and when we create we express ourselves through whatever we may be doing. For me its writing and expressing myself through music.
I had a somewhat difficult childhood, I say somewhat because I know it could have always been worse. My parents were divorced growing up, they both remarried a few times which caused me to feel pretty neglected at times. In elementary and middle school I was bullied by a group of "friends" who were upset when I couldn't come over one night, pathetic right? Along with that drama I had been suffering with Chronic Migraines and depression. I remember I once had a migraine for an entire 7 days, and if you've ever had a migraine you could only imagine the state I was in toward the end.
I definitely had moments where suicide was a thought, but music always saved me. Whenever I had suicidale thoughts or felt low I picked up my guitar, a pen and paper and let it out. I can't tell you how relieved I would feel after, and honestly I've always written significantly better in those moments.
Pain can be beautiful sometimes because the strength that comes from living through it, is incredible. For anyone out there reading this going through depression
, I have been there and I'm confident you can overcome it just like I did. You just have to want to!
If you're someone who doesn't like to share when you feel down, express yourself another way! Write in a diary, paint, draw, go for a run - get creative!
No matter what, you're not alone.